why do i feel like screaming?!? why do i always entrap myself into difficult situations? arggghhhhh!!!!

i always think to myself how will my life be like i had chosen another route. in other words where will the choices and decisions that i didn't make lead me to eventually? will i be happy or not and will i still meet the same friends that i have now? at the same time, such questions i know have no answers. i never stop pondering because it somehow makes me try to cherish what i have now, what i may not have if i had chosen another road. and maybe.. the decisions that i made weren't fully dependent on myself, therefore one decision led to others, which makes it all so incredible!! it is as if everything had been crafted out nicely from the start, and there's no turning back. we just gotta move on from where we are.

on another note, recently, i'm getting used to sleeping in till i wake up naturally (sleeping until i cannot sleep anymore). and it really rocks BIG TIME!!